Doctor: 'Can you just jump on the scales for me then?'
Me: 'No problem' (Ha, I've never worried about my weight in my life, ever.. pah.)
Doctor: 'Hmmm. 72kg. Hmmm.'
Me: 'Is that, umm, not good?' (This was my weight at 9 months pregnant with Isabel. I'm now less than 6 months pregnant. Gulp.)
Doctor: 'I'm going to refer you to a dietician who specialises in pregnancy.'
Me: Silence. I'm too busy dying of shame to talk.
Ahh, the joys of pregnancy. I already have a tummy that arrives about 20 minutes before I do and I've still got 3 months to go. Funnily enough though, it was my mum and not the doctor who put the fear of God into me about putting on weight. She told me that she too got a telling off when she was 6 months gone and was told not to put on any more weight UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES. Why? Because otherwise she'd have to give birth to a heffer of a baby, something that strikes cold hard dread into the heart of any sane woman with the vaguest familiarity with her birth canal. I've already started having nightmares about the birth so the idea of giving birth to a 5kg baby leaves me a quivering wreck. I found my limits the first time round, thank you very much. Isabel was normal sized and they still had to spend 40 minutes stitching me up. (If that's too graphic for you then you need to get a grip. Life, and especially birth, is a bloody, messy, gruesome business. If you haven't been through it yourself then rest assured that you at least put your poor mother through it).
So I've embarked on a fitness programme of walking, swimming and a preggers exercise DVD. I did the DVD yesterday for the first time and couldn't even keep up with the warm-up exercises (and today I can't move my arms). Trying to eat healthily, but it's hard when you're ravenous ALL THE TIME. An apple - v - marmite and cheese on toast with loads of butter = no competition. It takes superhuman will-power to have a cappuccino at the bar and not have a brioche with it. I could cry looking at all those jolly croissants lined up, bulging with jam and sprinkled with icing sugar, while I sip my sad little decaf. I feel (and look) like Pooh Bear hearing the voices of the hunny jars calling out to him.
Plus, nothing makes me hungrier than exercise. When I come out of the swimming pool I could devour a couple of wild boar as an antipasto. The only thing that makes me hungrier than exercise is being depressed, and being told I'm over-weight is mightily depressing. Add to that reading the newspaper over my coffee and learning all the other reasons for being depressed .. economic crisis, national strikes, Berlusconi (I thought we'd got rid of him? He's like the bloody Terminator - keeps popping back up) and then what do I see? Amidst all the grinding gloom and horror of today's news is a two page spread of Kate Moss for Liu Jo looking svelt and sultry in skimpy skinny jeans. Bitch. Pass the croissants NOW.